Still missing you
Christmas is really been hard on me since my grandpa died Christmas day of 2012 i just miss him and i still have trouble believeing hes really gone
Stay strong. Death's can be pretty tough to get through, especially ones near or on significant days. Take heart, it's okay to cry and mourn, and you may never 100% feel better, but you will find coping with it easier as time goes on.
So sorry about your loss. Great advice above. Grieving and missing someone, even if these feelings are difficult, are Okay. Miss him. Feel sad. Know that it is okay to feel this way. :)
Looks like you are upset. I am here to provide support and encouragements!
Musiclover
I'm so sorry for your loss. Bereavement is a really hard thing to get past mentally, this article might help?
https://plusguidance.com/blog/grief-mourning-and-bereavement-part-1/
I'm actually going through the same thing. My grandma died Dec 11 09 and I still can't believe it. It still hurts so deeply. She was the one that made Christmas special. That made Christmas Christmas ya know?