21 years old & in need of help
Hi, I was diagnosed with major depression at 19. My mom had a tumour in her since I was 7 and was given two choices, operation which let her live for five years on medication or no operation, one year of life without medications. She chose one year, thankfully she lived way past that until I was 15 and she was diagnosed with cancer and not so long after passed away. Ever since, I am dead, suffered in silence until 19 I decided to seek help because I attempted suicide. Diagnosed with depression. My family aren’t great so my condition was forgotten. I did my best to survive and completed school to get my diploma and I thought I will have a normal life like my friends which is to get a job but I failed (another series of unfortunate events because the hiring employers were mean). I need money to continue my degree thus right now I need a job. I am so lost and every day of my life, I wake up and I feel like just letting my soul go. Can someone help me and tell me how do I go on from here? I don’t know, I wake up crying and I sleep crying. I am very exhausted.
Hi, I’m struck by how similar our stories are. My mother was diagnosed with cancer when I was 15, she passed away when I was 19, and I was diagnosed with major depression right around your age. But enough about me. I can imagine this hurts more than anything in the world, and I am so sorry you have to go through this. It isn’t fair. But the grief and depression you’re experiencing is directly related to how much you love your mother, and that’s a good sign. And as difficult as it is to believe these are also growing pains. The person you are at the end of this depression (and there is an end, even if it ends up coming back occasionally throughout your life) will be much different and stronger than the person you are now or would be if you didn’t go through this. The next steps are simple. Get out of bed, even if you don’t want to, brush your teeth, take a shower. And keep looking for a job and finish your degree. And keep feeling your feelings, and processing, even though it hurts. You’re doing a great job already processing this painful event and I’m proud of you for reaching out on 7 cups. I’m 28 now and my world looks completely different. I still miss my mother and I still have bouts of depression, but time has soften and changed how I feel and if you’re patient, and keep being gentle with yourself, and slowly pushing yourself forward to get a degree and a job, time will heal all. Reach out anytime, if you can figure out how on this thing. You’re doing great.
Very touchy story ♥️ I can understand how tough it have been for you. I have been there with Depression for 7 years and I know tough it is to live like this. I have been also there where I contemplated suicide because I didnt like my life. I hope you find what you are looking forward to ♥️ Sending you hugs♥️
