Back again

So today ii had a mental health assessment that went rather okay I always feel anxious even walking to these things when I got home I had a mental breakdown because I was so excited to talk about my day then I remembered I have no one to tell it to,

really sucks being the outcast of society having nowhere to chill out or no place to be my house is my prison and my head is the warden self harm just isn't cutting it anymore (no pun intended) sometimes my mind just wonders what it'll be like to just take that step off the edge and descend into nothingness