Back to work on Tuesday (tomorrow)
I have been off work the past 3 weeks, and said No to a few shifts when asked if I could work. I spent 95% of my time working on the business I will be launching this summer. I'm not looking forward to heading back to work tomorrow (it's 3:30am Monday at the moment). Although it's a short work-week because of Easter Monday, I'm working the morning shift. Which means, I'll be needing to wake up, latest by 5:30am, in order to have breakfast before making my way to work
After being off for the past 3 weeks and focusing on my business, I'm really not looking forward to working anymore. I miss my colleagues, but not the ones who are directly on my team. I'd rather stay home to work on the preparation of launching my business. I am really pushing for success, really want to aim that I will be earning an income that's equal to the amount of a decent full-time job. But it's difficult to spend all my time on it, when I have to work in my current career. Although I don't need to work everyday of the year, and is only in blocks, it's difficult to focus on my business on my days off; unless they are at least 2 weeks long. I know some people had quit their career and focused on their business only, but I currently don't have the financial stability to quit my job yet.
I seriously don't feel like going to work anymore. I used to love my job, had passion for it, but I now feel like that I'm losing the spark. Maybe because I've been so focused on wanting to start my own business and really make it into the target that I will succeed. That the love for my current career position is diminishing, because the colleagues on my team only makes my work feel like work and no longer something I enjoy as much.
I might have to shorten my goal of earning that decent income with my business in 3 years, down to asap. It is all in my control as to how long it'll take me to succeed. I would really need to make use of my time off when I'm not pre-scheduled for shifts.
I'd better go to bed earlier tonight, so I could wake up to my alarm at 5am tomorrow. I cannot be staying up until this time again for this week. Unless, I run on depression‐mode (which is, still be energetic during the day, despite getting little sleep).
One more thing, when I get home from work on Wednesday, my parents should be back from their 6-week long vacation.
Back at work, and ended up having 2 sick calls. So, I'm staying for overtime. First day back at work in the past month, and needing to work overtime. I already didn't sleep too well last night, being nervous coming to work in the shift that I don't usually work. I went to bed around 11pm last night, woke up briefly at 1am and 4am. As alarm is set for 5am this week.
Staying overtime tonight though, I did not prepare a dinner. I did have some breakfast before coming to work this morning, and I'm still full now. So, I hope I can stay full until I'm off. I only brought coffee, because I'd originally be off at 3:30pm, I could've have dinner at home instead.
Other colleague stayed for 4 hours overtime last Thursday already, so I agreed to stay for today. Hopefully we get one of the sick calls back for tomorrow, or else it's going to be busy.
So, turns out the evening shift colleague will be off sick for the rest of the week. Which means I'll be staying for overtime for the remainder of this week. Last night, I was able to leave by 6:30pm, let's see how the rest of the week goes. Hopefully 3 hours extra is enough. The other colleague that works the morning shift will be staying an hour overtime. It makes some difference for her to stay, because she's actually using the time to help out.
So sorry that I missed all of this. My life has been really crazy for the last week and I had to take a short break.
It is okay to no longer love the job because you are ready to move forward. The question is how soon that you can do so. Maybe you should launch the business a little early.
I hope that you do get some sleep in the next few days.@Jaeteuk
I was able to only stay for 3 hours overtime on Friday, and left as soon as I could. But having been waking up at 5am all week, it was the same over the weekend. I woke up at 5am automatically on Saturday, and woke up around 6am on Sunday. It's going to be busy at work for the next 2 weeks, even though surgeries will be cut down by half, but with the elevator out of service, it's still going to be a lot of running around, department to department.
Hope this week will be better for you~
@bestVase7265
You will make it through. This week is already a bit better for me so far. @Jaeteuk