Bisexual Shame
I am done. I cannot live this way anymore. I cant stand walking around seeing the world full of life and passion, while I cant seem to figure out why I have none. Literally none. My gpa is plummiting in college. Me and my girlfriend broke up after 2 years. I have no energy to even try to be social. I absolutely CANNOT stop isolating myself from the world around me and I spend all my time alone. Then I get so lonely, I panic. I want the world to reach out to me and invite me to be a part of it, but I cant help but avoid every opportunity for that to happen. I cannot stress enought that literally NOTHING interests me about life at this point. I used to have my gf to always hangout with but now I have nobody. Even with her, I was guarded. I want people to know who I am but I dont even know who I am and as much as I try to figure it out for gods sake I cant. And as a junior in college most people arent looking for new friends. Everyone has there group. I also recently realized I am bisexual, and my attraction to guys has caused deep rooted shame that I cannot overcome. I havent told a single person about these thoughts, and I think I am even trying to keep it a secret from myself. I just cant accept it. I dont feel like I deserve to live. I have been in therapy and was very honest. I have said everything there is to say. I just want to sleep forever. It is the only escape from the reality of isolation and shame I hae created for myself. I just cant do this anymore. Please. help me.
@Tbigbro278
You've said everything there is to say ? Really ?
Because, you're right here. You're talking. You're looking for friends to share some more. I think you haven't said anything yet, because you're scared, right ? Wishing these thoughts that you desperatly want to get out wouldn't be here in the first place. I know what it is. Definitely a bother ~
Finding people is tough and staying with them is even tougher, I'll give you that. But as long as you're here, you're not alone. If you leave, then you'll be alone. But if stay here, I can listen to you. And guess what, I can even answer. So, yeah, I may be a mere stranger, but as long as you stick around and make your presence noticed just like you did, you're bound not to be alone at some point. Let's bet there're plenty of people around here ready to be social with you and for you.
Just stay here for now and you'll see how hard it actually is to be alone. Because as long as you're here at least I won't allow you to stay alone.
Yeah, and not deserving to live and stuff, you're wrong. No-one does not deserve to live.
@justanemptynobody Beautiful 
@TrueArrow
N-not really no. I mean, it's not that much at all...
T-thank you anyway...
@justanemptynobody is there any chance wecould message eachother?
@Tbigbro278
I don't know (and don't think) this website has any way for two members to share private messages somewhere else than in public (in which case it kinda defies the principle of a private message).
However if you're fine with public talk, or if you can think of any way to talk privatly, I wouldn't see any objection at all.
I have to say, I'm no listener tho~ I kinda wonder why you'd want to speak to me specifically. I can't pretend I have any skill they have.