Can’t be productive
First of all, I want to mention that I am not diagnosed, and that I’ve been dealing with what I believe to be depression for the past 9 years.
TW: thoughts of death (not suicide)
My mental health has its ups and downs, but it’s been down this entire year. Right now, it’s pretty bad again. I’m unable to get out of bed, can’t fulfill my responsibilities, and can’t bring myself to talk to people. I’m isolating myself, because the world exhausts me.
It’s still not the worst it can get, because when it’s really bad all I can think about is how nice it would be to just, disappear. (I’d never do anything to myself though, don’t worry). When my mental space is there, the pain of simply being alive is a lot to bear, and breathing becomes a burden. All I can do is cry, and that is when I’m able to feel anything.
Anyways, I dont want to feel that way again any time soon, but at this rate, I just might. So please give me advice on how I can be productive and get out of bed and face the world and the things I need to do.
It’s a cycle. I escape my responsibilities, and the guilt catches up to me. The only way out is to face it all, but I don’t have the energy to do that right now. So please give me advice on things I could try so that I can stop escaping, and get back on my feet.
the thing that works for me is to do what I can when I can. If all I can do is put away one dish today, then that’s what I do. I have had to come to terms with my life being messier that I would prefer. I lean on my partner a lot to help with the things that feel overwhelming. Do you have a support system? I’m so sorry you’re experiencing this kind of pain
@ohhappyday
i can relate i isolate ... i procrastinate.......... and then the guilt of not getting something done haunts me and i start the cycle all over ...........
people will say do one thing at a time or cope with small things one at a time.... these frustrate me ... but i find the strength because ............i know something like time you can not save or catch up....... i do not get a do-over..... it is hard and some things i am not giving my best effort but i do what i can .......
If i let go i find it easier to let go of bigger and bigger things .........
and that is a path i do not want to go down. It is very hard to do but you need to find your reason to give it a shot
