Confession
June 25th.
About a month and a half ago I attempted to leave this world. It was a Friday night and I had been drinking, as a way to release some pent-up energy. But it did the exact opposite. I got too wasted and by the end of the night I was in tears. On the way home I jumped in front of a moving car. The person I was walking home with pulled me out of the way. He later said that if I have been 5 pounds heavier, then he wouldn't have been able to. We haven't talked about it since. In fact, I haven't talked about it with anybody since. And now, over a month later it's starting to take its toll on me.
@FillTheVoid
Stay away from the alcohol please.
Thankfully you are both alive. Appreciate everything you can for what it is.
Goodluck!
@FillTheVoid how is it taking its toll on you?
@Harry53 I feel ashamed of it. My friends and family think I'm doing really well. They don't know I'm getting worse. They don't know I'm a disappointment.
@Harry53 If you were "too wasted" when you did that then you weren't thinking straight, and that partly explains your behavior at the time. In the future, you should avoid drinking too much if you want to avoid another embarrassing incident like this one. What do you mean when you say you are a "dissappointment?"