Dark and alone
Tonight is one of my worst nights. I'm struggling to keep fighting. I feel so alone and I don't see any point in continuing. I've hit bottom and I don't know how to get back to the light. I don't think I ever will. Everyday is the same thing over and over. I'm being crushed by the thoughts and it's hard to resist giving into them. It's hard to want to live. I don't want to live.
Feeling like I don't know what to do anymore, what's the point of continuing something if it's never going to turn out to be any good. Struggling to figure out what's best right now. How do you or when do you know that the best choice is to walk away?? If you have been with someone for over 13years but their now constantly telling you that your not happy & that maybe going seperate ways would be best? Being constantly told how I'm feeling without being asked actually how I feel I don't know tell me if I'm wrong but it's them that's not happy right? Am I wrong in thinking that maybe there is someone else & that I'm constantly being told I'm soo un happy so that I become that unhappy I actually leave, giving them exactly what they want. I've been told what to do who to hang with how to dress pretty much how to act for the last 13 years well let's say 10 as it was around then I finally snapped & said no my life my choices.
@Liv416, there is no problem in you finally standing up and saying that you life is yours. Your situation sounds really tough and I'm no expert on relationships, let alone yours but what I do know is that you can figure this out.
If you're confused about your feelings and your partners, talk it out, lay it on the table, make bullet points - those are my suggestions, but at the end of the day, do something that helps sort out the mess in your head. Good luck to you in your relationship and life, we at 7cups, love you!
Hey there @Solitaryshadow, I'm sorry to hear that you've hit rock bottom but to tell you the truth, I've been there many times myself and the positive I see is that the only way from there is UP, you're going to get through this and I know that it's hard right now but we want you to live, we want you to thrive and we want you to succeed.
I'm here for you, this community is here for you, reach out, don't give up just yet, because I know you've got fight left in you!