December 2nd Check In:

Its a little sad to admit this, but a year ago I was in a much happier place. Sure, I still had to deal with my over bearing mother when we were visiting family in Australia, but I actually felt loved at that point. I was days away from finally visiting my long distant boyfriend and I was ecstatic just as he was.

My great aunt and uncle were at least supportive of me going to spend a couple days with him when my mother absolutely did not want me to go with him.

Now a year later and 5 months after he visited me in my country, we are no longer speaking. We havent spoken in over a month. My mother keeps saying to not break it off with him, when really, she never wanted us to be together in the first place.

Im worse off now than where I was even two years ago. I feel like Im three steps behind from starting at square one again.

Im completely heartbroken...