Depressed for no reason
For over a year now, I have become more and more depressed by the day. As weeks go by, I hit lower and lower lows, and haven't really done anything to try and help myself. I feel like it could help to talk to a friend or therapist, but my friends don't really understand me, and I can never find the time or willingness to schedule an appointment with my college counselor.
When I was younger, it was easy to solve my problems by pinpointing the issue, and trying to work out a solution. Lately, I feel like there is no "real reason" for my depression--at least, in the context of society. In other words, it isn't relationship issues or personal concerns that make me depressed, but the state of society as a whole and my lack of identity.
I am beginning to hate and look down at people around me because for the most part, they focus on the same things--making money, getting a job, etc. I also envy them, because when they achieve these things they are happy. I go to a good school, will probably get a high paying job out of college, but it doesn't matter to me. It won't help me solve the issues of society (everyone stops to think about how our society is fucked up, but no one does anythign to try and change it).
Now I'm stuck. Do I go back to living ignorantly in the society I have come to think is "ridiculous", or do I continue to look down on others that allow themselves to become completely absorbed in materialistic things and keep being depressed of how sucky the world is? I honestly just want to be a good human being, and to be happy, but the more open minded I become about the world the more depressed I get. What do I do?
If the issues of society are getting you down you should choose one issue to focus on. it may be difficult for you to believe this but the efforts of one committed person can really make a difference in this world.
@patientMango30 I totally understand you! The USA is going down the tubes. Yesterday in my city, all the hispanic people took off of work whether they could or not, and went to our state capital to protest this new law about cops getting permission to ask a person about their immigration status! It's sad! I know there are several immigrants that come who do not speak English, but they don't bother anyone! They just come to make a better life for themselves and their family! My husband is Mexican. I went to Leon, Guanajuato. I have seen the poverty. Yet, the USA acts like it's life threatening that some immigrants choose to come here just to work? Makes no sense! And yes, everyone here is about money and material things. When I was in Leon, even though the people were poor, they were happy! They were happy just to be w/their family. That is something that people in the USA don't give a crap about either. It's all about fancy stuff. And where is majority of it made? Mexico or China! lol But anyway .. I understand.
@patientMango30 You say you're depressed for no reason. Uh, no...there is some reason. Depression can be a physical ailment caused by a variety of things. Try to make time to go to a clinic or counselor and get checked by a qualified health professional.
Good luck.
Wow, I posted this rant last night assuming no one would bother to look at it, let alone comment. Thank you all so much for the kind words.
@ToBeSuperman I would love to chat with you!
@Nails You are totally correct--I meant to put "No Reason" in quotes to signify the fact I am not taken seriously unless I can come up with some personal reason for depression such as loneliness or relationship issues
@patientMango30 I hope you feel better. Please go see your doctor and keep in touch. Love 💖