Feeling Pretty Miserable :/

Im just over life. I recently left my abusive relationship, and I got my own place, and everything. I’ve been slowly moving my stuff out of my other apartment where my boyfriend is still living until the lease is up. Leaving and being away was so freeing, but then I realized how lonely I was, and literally all my friends are just part time ppl in my life who live mostly far away from me anyway. I’m just all alone, and I started talking to my boyfriend again which I feel isn’t the right thing to do, but I truly cannot stand humanity. I feel like everyone in the end just disappoints me. I truly have no desire to make new friends or to even get into another relationship. I thought my boyfriend was my soulmate, and I feel like he’s the only person who understands me, but yet is abusive. He’s apologized, and claims he didn’t know blah blah which I’m just skeptical of, and I don’t necessarily want to go back to him, but we just talk for hours, and we talk about things I can’t talk about with others because ppl just don’t understand. Also I work pretty much 12 plus hours at my job constantly and even when I’m home I get called. It feels like I’ve been searching for a new job for years and I can’t seem to find anything. I’m just feeling really down and alone these days.