Feeling hopeless and helpless
I have really been struggling for the past year or so. I am so depressed. No matter how hard I try, I just can't see anything positive in myself or my life. I feel like the world is against me. I have no faith that anything will work out. I feel like I am going to be punished for no reason. I am so concerned with how I am perceived at work. I have gotten a lot of negative feedback and little positive feedback. I feel like I just can't do anything right. I try so hard and every day I come home from work and cry about how much I screwed up. I am sure my boyfriend is sick of hearing my woes. I just don't have anyone else to talk to. I have struggled making friends in this new city. At this point, I have given up. I want to get better so bad, but I just don't know what to do. I pray, I journal, I try affirmations, I try reading self-help books. Nothing seems to work. This is my last hope here.
Wedgery,
at some point of peaceful realization, I went from 'doing' (this, that and more), to just casually 'being'. I found my mind cleared and difficulties lessened, every time I let go of the thingsthat would not do well to change how I felt. I came to do (be) just the right amount.
Perhaps at this point in time, just the right amount is finding someone to talk to, who will listen without judgment, pressure, nor negativity.
If you like you can PM me, where I'll find time to connect to you, live or not. Or you can browse for a suitable Listener within the module at the very top of 7Cups' web pages.
And of course, you can continue to post here if this feels best.
Whatever you decide to do, I hope you can feel happier in whichever degree very soon.