Feeling suicidal but just couldnt do it... Please read all of it and help. Please
Im16 and i have only one older brotherthats20 right now. My brother has been bullying me since i was 12. I have to do everything he says and if i refuse or do something wrong,he would beat me up or yell at me. My parents sees it happening but theydontever care because they're too busy arguing to each other about ourpoverty issues. Plus my parents could only tell my brother to stop bullying me as a punishment so they cantrllyhelp much. Onjanuaryi got rejected by my crush andthatswhen i started having depression and suicidal thoughts. If my family finds out, they would only panic making everything worst and not even be able to help at all. I talked to my friends about my depression but i just endedup complaining so much that all my friends just decided to leave me. My brother once found out i was suicidal and depressed and pretty much found out about metalking to a strangeronline on my email that was trying to help me. When he did find out, he first beat me up because i said he's a bully and then he laughed and said "if u wanna die so bad, then go ahead and die. Nobody would care anyways." And the sad part is that it's all true. Ever since i got rejected by my crush, shes been ignoring me so we stopped talking to each other since June. Now all i get from her is seeing her kissing her new bf at school everyday and from her posts. I never called the hotlines because ik i would never have the guts to kill mysellf and idk any councelors besides my school's one but she's really mean. Ever night i have to cry myself to sleep and i would always wake up at least 2-3 times per night each time just to cry some more. Idk what to do anymore... I just wish i was dead...
Dear Eon, I am deeply saddened to hear your story and the things you're enduring. Let me tell you I have been through very similar issues througout my life with
dear eon....
im sorry about all that you are undergoing....definitely you dont deserve to die...we all care about you...you are precious...there never was and there never will be another you..you are one of a kind...and dont ever handle the remote control of your life to others...your brother / your gf...dont let them decide your happiness....its your life....remember...you are not an ordinary person...there are 10 billion people in this world...just because 1 or 2 dont care doesnt mean no one else will...dont end your life...become great...go to a position that one day that girl's children will read about you in their textbooks...achieve eternal glory....everyone has some bad people in their life but never let those bad ones determine your life....
Hey,
I'm sad to hear your story - no one deserves to go through that. The next time you have thoughts about suicide, I really encourage you to call 1-800-273-8255 or go to www.suicide.org. These suicide hotlines are staffed by caring people who will listen to what you are going through, and help you make it through. We all care about you and want you to be well.
Too bad they arent anonymous like they say they are...
@DontHaveaNamethx for teaching me how to make a thread.
Youre welcome, and im so sorry for whats happened to you... out of all the things ive seen, and been told by my friends.. i dont think ive ever heard a more heartbreakin story... i hope you get out of there really soon. You dont deserve any of that pain at all
Cont'd.... With bullying, parents separating when I was young and being rejected many times. However, you must be very brave to talk to your crush. Now, as vig mentioned, you ARE worthy of love life.and happiness. You must never forget that. You are not alone and people care. Sometimes parents get busy and forget but that doesn.t mean they don't love you. So you should let them know how you feel, maybe over dinner. You do not deserve to be bullied by your brother, don't be afraid to stick up for yourself! I bet he is only doing that because he thinks he can get away with it. Always talk to someone when you feel down and remember you always get up more times than you fall. You have got your whole life ahead of you I hope you enjoy it :):)
P.s. Apologies for the duplicate posts tech difficulties
Dear Eon,
Sometimes we are thrown into hard times, but whether we can pick ourselves up that makes a whole lot of difference. Of course, I am not saying that the situation you are in is easy to solve, and I am alsosaddened to hear what you are in. I hope I could help you here with this post but I may not be entirely right because only you know your story the best.
I am 16 too and I understand to be the victim of bullying. I am sorry to hear that your brother is bullying you since 12. I have to say that you must be very strong in order to withstand your family situation and your brother.
You mentioned that the councelor in your school is mean, is there any other trusted adult you can approach? Maybe a teacher or a headmaster could step in and help. They could help you to search for healthcare schemes so that you can get the help you need. (This depends on your country, so I am not too sure), It is better to be able to seek a councelor that you can be comfortable with so that he can help you with the depression and stuff.
With your brother, I am not too sure what to suggest. Well, personally I took some martial arts class to learn self-defense. Also, it helps to build me up. Fitter, nobody touches me since then.
I am not very good at romantic relationships here, but if you got rejected it's her loss. You deserve better. There are so many girls out there. Take your time.
I can relate toyou when your friends left because they feel weighted down. But it's okay. Because real friends will try to help you. Maybe they didn't know how to. Maybe they were afraid. Real friends are rare but they do come by.
Nobody deserves to die. Give it time.I know that you may be in this rough time, but remember that you have the strength to overcome that, People do care. Really. Nothing in this world is easy, hard times can come. What keeps us moving on during hard times? Hope, that things can be better. And here I am, trying to give you hope. The main thing is to keep trying, no matter how deep the fall is, pick yourself up. And keep trying. Because if we don't try, there isn't hope, only regrets to speak of.
I hope you can contact some listeners here. They really do help. And I hope that you keep trying, things really do get better.
There is the teen text crisis line. You can text "help" or "answer" to 721721....they can be helpful too. Or the boystown national hotline.
I meant 741741....sorry.
@Eonkid5 i'm going through the same pain you are but i try to down i all away with music and try to atleast build up the courage.oh wha am i saying you're 18 now i bet the pain is all gone.