✮Hi There!✮

If you clicked on this thread, I'm assuming it's because the title seemed to apply to you. This is a passage I found from when i was depressed. I thought it would be interesting to post, and hopefully some of you will be able to identify with what I wrote during one of the worst spells of my depression. CHEERS! ❤

My depression was taking over me. I was wearing a mask that only i could take off. It was excruciating, and with every fake smile i felt my integrity drifting away, piece by piece. Sometimes I couldn't breathe. Sometimes it wasn't worth trying to breathe. when someone dropped a nice word by my way all i could think was "that's a lie". I knew i was being much too mean to myself, but I didn't deserve any better. when your lung feel heavy and liquid, and you have unseeing, unwilling eyes. when you are able to hear but don't feel like listening anymore. That's when you know that it's depression. That's when you know it's got you. That's when i feel like i should give up. When all you have to say about you own situation is "I'm fine" and when you start lying to even yourself. That's when you know that It's hit you. And i felt, and still feel so very alone in this world. Nobody walking besides me, ghosts screaming from my past, and only specters of lost dreams in my seemingly futile future.

After my recovery, I realised how very wrong i was when i wrote this passage, and found my new favorite quote -

❧ you may feel lonely but you are never alone ☙

(sorry for the rainbow explosion, heh.) If you ever want to talk, I'm Always Just A PM Away ❤