Frustrated
I am confused. Why is it that I try so hard, yet I can't get anything? At school when everyone is joking around, I work hard to study and do my homework...either way I get home and cant do anything. My parents think it's my fault that I lay on the ground and waste time but it's more than that. I dont have anyone to talk to, and I've tried every coping method possible. I feel like giving up on everything. I am also a runner but I am starting to feel there is no point in the one dream I have which is to get to a 4 minute mile. My whole life is studying, running and working hard in everything. Why cant I have more friends? Why dont my friends invite me anywhere? Why does it always have to be me to reach out? Why are all my friends always so depressive? I want to be happy and have fun like everyone else my age but I feel like a mini adult. I'm not happy at all. I wish I had someone but I've gave up on psychiatrists, my parents and friends. They never help. Psychiatrists just tell you the crap you already know. "OH just try to distract yourself, do meditation and breathing strategies, think positively." My parents dont understand and I dont have friends I feel comfortable enough to tell my problems. AND before you go into the comments, Yes, I've tried journaling. I've tried every piece of useless crap to Make me feel better. I just dont even care anymore. I cant go to sleep without crying every single night, my throat usually hurts, and SO MUCH more..my life sucks.
@randomp3rson I do get what you mean, you have been putting a hell lotta effort, much for than anyone else, and when that doesn't pay off, it's frustrating af.And it's worse when you have been trying your level best but people shrug it off and say, nah it's all because of you, you need to try harder or you aren't even trying.And here, I am not trying to blame or defend your parents or anything,but maybe they don't really understand your situation and what you are going through.Though, yes that doesnt give them the right to assume that they understand what you are going through.To me, it kinda sounds like you are tired of the way your life has shaped up, like maybe you are fed up of the routine and desperately want a change.And I feel like you want someone to talk to, a friend.A real one, who you could confide in.And yeah dude, am really sorry your life sucks that much.And I don' really have any solution or even advice for you, so you could say my answer is pointless.And is there anything rn in your life that you absolutely love doing, any small thing, that makes you even slightly happy? And I hope things get better for you.I really do. And well I am not much help, but if you need someone to talk to, I think you ll find some great people here :')
