Giving up!
Hi I do not post much at all on these forums. I have suffered depression a long time now (over 10 years) and things just keep getting worse no matter how hard I try and change things for the best and no matter how many people say "oh things will get better" when they simply dont. Things have been on a slide now for too long and I am ready to completely give up and end it all. I cant keep living like this. goodbye
@denya
I feel the exact way too.Crying doesn't even help,but I feel like it's too soon to give up.I just don't know how to get over the excruciating feelings I go through in just one day.Is losing hope ever a sollution?
Hey there! :)
I've properly moved your thread to the General Threads section.
Are you actively suicidal? :O
@Alex
not a problem and yes I am
@denya Aw, I'm so sorry to hear this. I would urge you to connect with a crisis resource, as 7Cups listeners are not trained to assist you during crises. Know that we are not turning you away - we want you here - we are just looking out for you by sending you somewhere that can support you better than we can. Here are some crisis resources for your convenience, although there are many more out there:
bit.ly/1O8hioR
Suicide hotline: 1-800-273-8255
Text "Start" to 741-741
www.imalive.org/
www.crisischat.org/
www.suicide.org/international-suicide-hotlines.html
suicidepreventionlifeline.org/GetHelp/
@Alex not to come across as a *** or anything but genuinely curious. Is there a more anonymous version of that number where they don't track the call and send cops to your house? No offence but going to such lengths I know it is a precaution but if someone is unstable enough to harm themselves is it logical to lock them up with random strangers? Especially if they have anxiety issues on top of it all?
[Edited by Forum Teen Star @Alex to censor inappropriate language.]
I've been dealing with severe depression and chronic physical issues for most of my life. I've had to suffer thru it alone. My depression comes from a very horrible childhood /life. I don't feel I can do this much longer. I have no reason to live and I'm worn out. I've been trying to fix my life more than I've lived it. Just ready to die.
@lilyofwinter23
I understand your sturggle. My family was a terrible place for a kid, and even as an adult I haven't surrounded myself with the most helpful people. I have battled depression my entire life, I think I was born wanting to die. However, it really does hurt to see other people suffer this way. I am not a bitter resentful person, even though I have a debilitating disease that my family doesnt understand, and I have lost most of my family to death. I do have three grown children who wouldnt be here had I given up, and they still need me, and that keeps me going. Please remember when your tired you can find rest by giving your problems to God. Without Him I would never have made it this far.
I really hope you're doing better today. I'm here if you need someone. You are worth so much and there is always something to live for. You are loved. Praying for you. <3
@denya I just want to say that I know exactly how you feel. My life has been one disaster after another, but for some reason I just keep getting back up to be knocked back down by life. Although some events such as my brother passing were out of my control, I feel a great deal of guilt for the things I could have controlled. There have been many times I have wanted to give up. Yet when I see a post like yours the first thing I think is how dark, lonely and devestated you must be feeling and it causes me a lot of anguish because I see suicide as being a dark and lonely place. I want you to realize that nothing in this world is permenant not even this moment. Everything changes as time goes by. This too shall pass. Think of all the times you thought you couldnt make it through but you did. What would you have missed had you given up? What will you miss tomorrow if you give up today? Look at the sky, the sun, the clouds, the flowers, the trees, a childs smile. What will you miss? Although I have been suicidal my entire life, I hate to see someone else feel that bad about themselves or their lives. Please look at what could be and reach for it. Dont give up! Tomorrow may be your day.
Don't give up. Although it is your choice, I encourage you to hang on. For everyone else.
It hurts to watch someone in such pain. I've felt that pain. Watching them fall deeper into a hole, with no way to climb out. Like there is a locked door at the top of the hole.
I don't know who you are or what your struggles are, but please stay with us.
I am sorry that you feel this way.