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I’ve suffered from depression since the age of 9. I’m 28 now and I believe my depression has hit a new level. I was in a car accident and next day I went to get checked up, X-ray done and all and everything came back fine. I should be happy about that right? Nope! Instead I was upset that nothing is wrong. I was hoping that Something would be wrong with me to the point it might be terminal. I find myself wishing more harm then good for myself. It’s like I want to finally just be done and gone. It has been eating me up inside since To the point my dreams are about my depression and how I I feel dead on the inside. My last dream was of me looking at myself as if I was watching tv. And all I saw was me with no emotions no life nothing sitting there so lifeless! 😔 I can’t talk to anyone in my life about my feelings. I have put on a happy face for so long that I feel like if I talk to someone they wouldn’t take me seriously. Actually years back i was called a psycho for going to see a therapist on my depression, haven’t gone back since. What is life when this is how it’s gonna be. How can I find the meaning of happiness when all I know is sadness. It sucks!
I'm so sorry to hear that, you should have the right to talk about your feelings without being called anything, if other people cannot deal with your feeling that should be their own problem, you should have a right to feel, even if they are bad feelings.. It makes me mad to see people being this mean to people like you who already has enough going on.. I hope you find a way to express your feelings and get accepted by it and I hope a big fat monster eats your depression away
