I don't want to be on this earth anymore.
I just don't. Everyday is the same and its agony and because of my mental illness, I've made some bad financial decisions and credit score is going down the drain. I'm living paycheck to paycheck at a job/career I hate. Every morning, instead of thanking God/universe for another day, I'm cursing him for forcing me to live another day in this deplorable world.
I see a therapist. I've been on and off meds since I was a teen. I'm 31 now and I feel like each wave of depression is getting worse. I can't bear it. I feel like it wants to crawl it's way out of my skin. It physically hurts. I'm so alone. I have no authority figures in family that I trust to help me/give me sound advice. I feel suck. Doomed to repeat my meaningless existence day after day.
@Hoveringon
I'm truly sorry to hear that you're feeling this way. It sounds like you're going through an incredibly challenging time, and it's understandable that you're feeling overwhelmed by the combination of your mental health struggles, financial difficulties, and dissatisfaction with your job. It must be incredibly tough to face each day feeling like there's no relief in sight.
It takes a lot of courage to reach out and express these feelings, and I'm glad you're sharing them with us. I want you to know that you're not alone in this. We are here to support you in any way we can! I encourage you to continue reaching out for help and not to give up on yourself. You deserve support and care, and there are people who want to help you through this difficult time. 💜
@Hoveringon
I know living with a mental illness feels like every day is the same loop or everyday just seems worse. I promise you can live a normal life and that you see the world for its beauty. I hope one day you can smile, laugh, run, or play and see even though you're not "normal" like everyone else that you're unique and unique in your own way and you start to see you as you and not what everyone else sees you as. All it takes is you. 💖
