I feel like dying don't know what to do anymore
My life of 24 years is a freaking mess. Wherever I go I fuck up. I had a very very painful dark past which is making my life impossible. I am not clever at all and due to this I can't solve my problems in life. I try very hard but no matter what I do I am stuck with my inferior brain. I have no idea how a person can be so stupid, I have never see anyone dumber than me in my whole life.
I am doing bad in every single area of life- financial, social, health, sexual, spiritual, mental.. I have absolutely nothing to look forward to. I can't imagine my life getting better. I sometimes think that I am cursed or I am stuck inside a simulation in which I am destined to suffer forever.
Some people would ask me to turn to God but no religion makes any sense to me. Christianity, islam, jewism, hinduism, buddhism.. everything is bullcrap. I feel like someone like God is responsible for creation of everything but he just doesn't care about us. There's no karma or justice and you can be worst person ever and get away with it if you are clever enough.
A never ending cycle of destruction has trapped me and I want out. I am clueless on what to do next.
@lightBike2965
If I may, you are not inferior. To know when you do not know something shows a surprising amount of intelligence that most do not exhibit. My first thought on this sounds more like impulse control. You do things for gratification and no thought on impact to tomorrow. You first might want to try and envision what you see as a good or content life. What's your dream. I started with a dining room table. I wanted one big enough to sit 14. I wanted it be where everyone was welcome. Maybe all I had was peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. People would sit and talk, and we would scoot chairs over to make room for another to join. I have the table, and no electronics are allowed. I have a deck of cards on it. Now I am doing the next step. People say make goals...they make it sound like GRAND dreams only. No, it needs to be steps. Start there. Message me if you want. I'm a wreck right now too, but I will try and help keep it simple and not so scarey...Will probably help me as much as you.
@lightBike2965 hey i know u provably not doing well right now, i just wanna let u know that if u wanna talk, send me a message its ok. im new here and im still figure it out how this page works and i actually don't speak english haha but u can talk to me if u want, im a great listener. stay safe
Thanks guys for your replies but I don't get how to message you. I clicked your profiles but there's no option to contact you
@lightBike2965.
I'm new let me figure it out how to msg