I feel so stupid for thinking this, but I've recently been thinking of {Edited}.[TRIGGER WARNING]
Hey, ehm, I was iffy about sharing this because even after reading the community rules, I'm still not completely sure what's aloud... but I've been suicidal for a while now. Yes, I know "things will get better" and "suicide doesn't just end the chance for things to get worse, it ends the chance for things to get better too," but these quotes only do so much. Why is it that -- even though people are constantly saying they will -- things never get better? I've given my life a chance, a very long one in my opinion, and my hope seems to have failed me. I'm going through what feels like so much... but for what? To get a good life? What does that matter? Why wait for this terrible life to get better when I can just take the easy way out? I can just end it all. I know that these are the words of a coward, but I cannot take it any longer! I cannot take this anymore. I've given God -- or Buddha -- such a long long long time... so why hasn't it gotten better? Maybe I'm expecting too much out of life... but... I don't think it's supposed to be like this. Life isn't supposed to be something you have to bear... its something you want to fulfill! But I don't want that... please, if anyone knows how to make me feel happy -- or at least not terrible -- I'm open to suggestions.
Hey I know how you feel. But trust me there is always a way out. I've been there I'm still kind of there. I'm at the end of the road and all I have to do is cross the finish line but I just can't seem to get across because I'm stuck looking back. Sometimes we have to let go and move forward. We can't let our hearts and minds fool us. We are our worst enemy.
I know this probably isn't much coming from me, but I'm proud that you were able to tough it out. You are a very strong person, and I hope things getter better for you.
Nekotheuzachan you could be and are that strong too. :) I have also had times where I thought about ending it all. It actually crossed my mind tonight. But sometimes you have to look back and think about all the things you survived then. Think about the good times you had that you could have missed. That's what makes me feel a little better at times. I hope that things do get better for you sooner rather than later.
Thank you. :) I don't have many good memories, bit I'll definitely take your advice and think to the ones I do have.
it takes a lot to come out and speak about your situation and admit it.
i used to be in exactly your place. i would think to myself "nothing matters, nothings right, and nobody cares".
a year later, here i am at 3 a.m. laying next to the love of my life in our bed planning a future together. dont give up what could be over what is. much love <3
That's very sweet :) I hope things go well for you two! And thank you for the tip, I will try my best. :3
Hey I know how you feel. I've had depression and anxiety for 4 years. I have nights like tonight where I let my thoughts get the best of me. I'd like for it all to go away too, the best thing I found to help me was talking to my brother. He went through the same thing and he understands. Finding someone like that helps. Hope things work out for you soon.
So, ehm, it turns out that I had a chronic sickness for years so I recently (Literally two weeks ago) had throat surgery. Well, I just started getting better and I just so happened to get a virus. My fever -last I checked- was 103 so that explains why I can't stand up without feeling like death has come upon me. Usually, I could handle these simple bumps in the road, but I don't have much family support, and some people aren't being very pleasant. One person told me that nobody at school even missed me and nobody has said a word to even point out the fact that I've been out for weeks. That makes me sad, mostly because my not so sweet of an ex is there and even though I hate them I also kinda love them (Ehh what can I say, I'm a teen! :P) Also, earlier today my 'friend' was telling me about her friend who tried to overdose, but then she exploded at me when I suggested he get proffesional help. Why is it that every time I try to be nice, it only ends in my suffering? I'm afraid I'm plunging back into depression and I can feel my resolve to stop self harming vanishing. What do I do?
Also; I'm really sorry I sound so whiney, I'm sure others have it wayyy worse and I'm probably spoiled or something. I honestly don't understand why you gorgeous people would even want to help such a loser.
