I hate myself so much
I finally started cleaning my room for the first time in years because my mom said I could have a sleepover with my friend for my birthday if I did but their mom said it's too far of a drive. I got the clothes out but they're all in the hallway since I don't have a hamper and i'm upstairs and can't get anymore motivation to move them all downstairs after my friends mom said he cant come over anymore. I met my brother's girlfriend and she said no one wants to see my dirty clothes and I feel so guilty I just agreed and now i'm in my room crying. I probably won't come out until tomorrow because I just used the bathroom and have a little bit of water in here if I really need it.
Happy Birthday to you!! Tomorrow is my bday. We're Birthday buddies lol. Sorry your plans fell through and you're struggling with chores. I hope your day gets better.
I don't see what there is to hate. A messy room is a common thing, it's your space and a lot of things can impact the condition it's in. Hardly anything to hate about you there! You were excited to have your friend over and that excitement got ruined by something unexpected and out of your control. Of course that's upsetting!! Of course that would defeat the motivation you had. What's there to hate about someone just feeling disappointed and defeated over a reasonable thing. Someone making a rude comment about something that's none of their business on the other hand.... totally uncalled for. You don't go to someone else's home and make comments like that. It's just some laundry, boo hoo lady! It's the same clothes you wear, just has been worn, what's the big deal. It's understandable to want to just hide, to feel upset and hurt and disappointed. But you really haven't done anything wrong, and certainly nothing hate-able.
I am sorry that it feels as though you cleaned for nothing. But really you didn't. I know that it didn't end up the way that you wanted it to, but even moving is an accomplishment some days. Sending strength and peace for a better day tomorrow. @GloomyBear27
@GloomyBear27 I am sorry to hear that. Hug you. But you do not have to hate yourself. Even though I have ever hate myself. I still want to hope you can love yourself. Something you just do not have motivation to do. but it is ok. take tour time. do not too much care about that. Let us be better.
How are you feeling now?@GloomyBear27
honestly i want to off myself i can't deal with basic things anymore and I can't go back to another hospital
Taking stuff down to really basic tasks when it all becomes overwhelming can really help. Are you eating, drinking and sleeping okay? @GloomyBear27