I'm fighting with myself
For sometime I've been feeling like I have had an underlying depression, yet this year it's getting stronger, and I feel like it's beating me. It undermines my achievements and tells me I'm no good. It says to me in the mirror that I offer nothing that a girl would find attractive. It says that my future is hopeless no matter what path I take. I fighting and feel like I'm losing. Can you help?
Welcome Fizzy, and thanks for joining us!
You being here is certainly a positive step because you realize there is something going on and this is the first step in addressing it. That takes courage. I hope you realize the realism in that assertion.
My question to you Fizzy is, do you mind sharing more details? That would help us understand the picture you're seeing.
Hope to hear from you!
For example, I'm 18 and got accepted into 2 colleges with one of them offering me 3,000 dollars to attend. Yet I don't feel happy or elated about this, I just feel as if I don't deserve what I've got, I feel like I've coasted through life without doing any hard work. I don't deserve the achivements I've made or those same achivements aren'treally that big.
For example, I'm 18 and got accepted into 2 colleges with one of them offering me 3,000 dollars to attend. Yet I don't feel happy or elated about this, I just feel as if I don't deserve what I've got, I feel like I've coasted through life without doing any hard work. I don't deserve the achivements I've made or those same achivements aren'treally that big.
I see Fizzy. Some of us are naturally "gifted" so to speak where things come easier to us, and sometimes we can feel guilty because we are comparing this to others and observing their effort. Do you feel you'd fit in this category? If not, please do correct me. :)
I've had some teachers say that I am, I don't believe it that much though as there are many within my class who seem to do better than me. However, this may be due to the fact that my high school is very rigourous.
I see Fizzy. Some of us are naturally "gifted" so to speak where things come easier to us, and sometimes we can feel guilty because we are comparing this to others and observing their effort. Do you feel you'd fit in this category? If not, please do correct me. :)
I see Fizzy. Some of us are naturally "gifted" so to speak where things come easier to us, and sometimes we can feel guilty because we are comparing this to others and observing their effort. Do you feel you'd fit in this category? If not, please do correct me. :)
Fizzy, I am so sorry! I have no idea what happened right there. Apparently my concerned conscious made me continue entering in the same thing over and over. ;)
Rigorous schools help discipline us. It seems you're starting to realize there are more variables at play here. :)
Possibly, but I don't feel very disiplined, I feel inconsistent with my work and often procrastinate on many things despite the routine I try to follow.
Do you feel as if there is a way to combat this?
I don't know, I've tried a lot but none of it seems to help.
Do you mind sharing both what you have and haven't tried? It will give us a better idea of your situation. Sorry for the questions, Fizzy, but I am really interested in hearing you out. :)
I've tried running but stopped when I felt I was on the verge of throwing up. I tried eating right but preparing the foods were too time consuming to do. I tried to set up a daily routine but something always through a wrench in my plan making it impossible to maintain.
Thank you for answering. Another question if you do not mind: Is there anything you haven't tried that you feel *could* work?
