I'm giving up

@Jessimi

I'm here with you. I sense how great your distress is, and I acknowledge it, I honor it. You have been coping thru quite a lot and it's probably been overwhelming for a while already, right?

Being irritable is a common occurrence for someone who copes through mental illness. Your mind is moving so quickly most of the time, even the smallest thing can feel like a wrench being thrown into our mental gears. And what would happen in a machine? It might explode, yeah. Anger is very tough to channel but thru mindfulness, we can take control back piece by piece until it becomes a habit to pause before reacting. It won't always look pretty but over time, it gets easier to manage.

Finding our purpose in life sounds daunting, and it is. We have a whole lifetime ahead of us and... if we aren't working towards it, it can feel like we're wasting our time. That feeling turns into self-doubt, and then resentment-- until we think "why even bother?" But... you aren't alone in this.

There are many ways to cope thru anxiety attacks, and there are processes that allow us to get inspired for the future and figure out what you'd like to pursue. If you'd like, even, we can talk about it sometime 1-1.

I am wishing you the best.
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@Jessimi. I understand the pain you feel. I have given up entirely on multiple occasions. You have to keep fighting though. Purpose is a pretty big word. I would just say try to find something that's makes you happy or smile just a smidgen . It's those small steps that can create bigger openings. Try is all you can do and people on this site will have your back. I have your back. Take those small steps and find a little happiness and build from it. You might just find some of that purpose along the way. Best wishes to you.