I'm not sure what category this post belongs in.

Mainly, I want to express my gratitude for the people who have listened to me in chats and here in the forums.

I disowned my family around Easter this year because I just got tired of always feeling like a loser when I was around them. I communicate with my mother, but only on "business" stuff; I don't tell her anything personal.

I've lost most of my friends. Either they were irritated by me, or I was irritated by them. Of the three that I have left, none live near me. Two are married with kids and barely have time to answer a text message or email. Really? You're THAT busy? And the third is getting ready to get married. Nobody has time to listen to me. And I can't relate to their issues (I'm single and childless).

I had my precious cat put to sleep last month.

I work alone, at home. I email clients, but obviously they aren't there to fulfill my interpersonal needs.

If I died, I think it would be days before anybody figured it out.

As lonely and scary as that sounds, there is no way I'm going to let somebody else judge, criticize, or hurt me again. I put up with it most of my life. Now I'm sort of trapped between two different kinds of pain, but I'll take this one, I guess.

So it really helps to have a place where I can run things by somebody so I don't go crazy.

Can anybody else relate to how lonely and isolated I am?