I passed the bar exam, but I still feel empty
I guess I thought I would feel more happiness when it happened. But it doesnt change much of anything. Im still hurting, and I still dont know how to get healthy. Or if thats even possible a this point.
To make matters worse, I only have under a year to get better.
@Scsmiley
Deep breathe.... you have made a major accomplishment - you passed the bar and I congratulate you for doing it. I know so many people who had to take it several times -- so you are very dedicated, very intelligent, and very well prepared for the black-letter law. One thing I've learned hanging out with lawyers -- If you get a chance to work the clinics, do it - you will appreciate that you did.
Now -- with this goal out of the way, you can spend some time on you and with you. That may not sound great ... depending on the conversations going on in your head but figuring out what you need to keep, what you need to discard, and why you feel unhappy may help you get to where you can move/unquagmire yourself. The stress of law school has passed... have you let it go or are you still running on it? (we often use stress to fuel us or to motivate us but then we're left with the stress and no place to get rid of it)
Maybe you'd like to explore mindfulness. It's kind of the art of living in the now and helping with those thoughts that overtake our minds - the weather patterns of the mind. The tools of mindfulness might help you -- body scan, gratitude, meditation and more to release some of the stress and settle thoughts and emotions. You might get a better understanding at the forum and you are welcome to join us. It has helped me with the rampant fire thoughts, negative speak, and trying to get back on solid ground -- > https://www.7cups.com/home/mindfulness/?rid=218306145
Have you explored the self-help guides of 7cups yet? https://www.7cups.com/supportGuides/selfHelpGuides.php
They're full of exercises, information, coping mechanisms -- and they're on all kinds of topics. The Depression is good, I learned a few things from it.
Take it one step at a time. You don't have to sort it all out at once. You don't have to have all the answers at once. You owe yourself a break... you have been through a lot to get where you are - Doctor of Jurisprudence.
Sorry if I haven't made much sense... I'm running on 3 hours of sleep. :D
I hope there's something in here that helps.
@Scsmileyv I hear you, and honestly, that realization hits so heavy when a big moment doesn't magically take the pain away like you hoped it would. Putting a tight clock on your recovery, like saying you only have under a year and just builds massive pressure that makes it even harder to heal. Getting healthy isn't an all-or-nothing race with a deadline, and it is still completely possible for you even if it feels miles away right now. You don't have to fix your entire life or figure everything out today, you just have to take it one tiny step at a time.