I wish I could see a way out
It's all my fault, I've put myself in this situation and now I must face it. I'll accept a job too hard for me just to don't disappoint my partner. I know I'll pay it, but I really can't stand seeing him disappointed or thinking I like easy life. I could've just waited to find a job I knew I could do, but I was such in a hurry to please him, I didn't think about what I was doing. And now I'm here, laying down in our bed, 2,30 a.m. thinking what to do. I just would like to disappear, disappear from life, so I would never let anyone down. I would like to run away from everyone, I really wish. Tomorrow I'll accept the job and I'm not sleeping. I'm also wondering if I'll ever learn to live without the weight of pleasing people and thinking about the price I'll pay for my decision, will I be able to pay it without ruining my relationship? I really don't know, I wish I could see a way out.
Ps: sorry for the mistakes I made, I'm Italian and very tired, so please forgive me.
@persistentTurtle415
Hey there! For starters I just want to say I really like your username. I have a turtle myself and theyre the best/adorable. So a persistent turtle sounds awesome and like a good idea for a comic strip too lol.
Your writing was good, no need to apologize! Im sorry youre having a rough time. If you accept the job, try to be easy on yourself. Everyone who accepts a new job has some learning to do and thats okay. Its the companies job to teach you what you need to know in order to be productive there. Don't be afraid to ask questions or for help when you need it! And above all else, just remember, if it isnt the right fit for you, keep hunting for another. Maybe in a months time, you'll find the right one and can trasnfer. That's okay too. Don't give up. Your partner may not understand at the moment but you should be able to sit down with the ones you care about and explain what you're feeling and going through, help him understand.
Best of luck and don't forget to take care of yourself. Be a persistent turtle. <3
