Living in my own world

I recently started work at a grocery store, and it's hard on me emotionally and physically. I feel very depressed and anxious so much in fact that I have begun to live in my own world. I hate where we live, and we won't be moving until February 28th. I mean, I absoultely can't stand anything about the area, the culture, or the people there. I miss my family. I wish that I could runaway and live some where alone and secluded where I can find peace. The only reason that I don't is because I love my significant other more than anything in the world.

Tommorow I have to go to work and I am dreading it. I recently had an issue with a manager, and the last day I was there I nearly had a meltdown. Now I have to go to a disabilty hearing because they denied me again and I feel like life is going to hell. I feel like running and running--escaping to somewhere far away. I feel like doing nothing at all except for writing/living in an imaginary world. I often feel that life is hopeless and sad, and the only hope I have is my SO and my family who are so far away. I feel like life is a horribly tangeled mess and I just don't know anymore.