My thoughts are getting worse

I'm praying for you. 💌

@lavenderWater2860 I'm sorry to hear that dear.

In my case I can't afford therapy to begin with. Doing a hectic physical activity helps calming down the physical clenching when I get anxiety (luckily I don't have chronic one).

When it comes to depression, the best I can tell you is to pray and keep looking for yourself, in books, videos of people like jordan peterson, online articles, other people's experiences. There's this recent book I read called and there's a short 10 minutes video on (diet and depression) I'll attach the link below if you're interested.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nEL63hY_Slw

These kinds of stuff kinda help sometimes, and sometimes it just offers some solidarity.. but we take whatever we can get right?

I'm not trying to give you tons of homework.. I'm just recommending ideas, take from them as suits you. I know it can get way too heavy and lonely under that pressure. I really hope you get better 💕

@lavenderWater2860
I'm sorry you have to go through this. I have been seeing a therapist for almost 5 months and I am in a good state of mental health. I get anxiety attacks but I try quick remedies told by my therapist to get over them. https://mangoclinic.com/strategies-to-fight-depression/ . If therapy is not working for you it's probably because either you are not ready to accept the reality or your condition. My therapist told me self-acceptance is the key to recovery, once accepted this will go much easier. Hoping for the best for you.