Never knew 'coming out as depressed' was ever going to be an issue but here it is
I'm 15, living in conservative Philippines. People here don't really believe in mental health issues, saying that disorders are excuses. Admittedly, it's a rustic way of thinking. Well, not reallyeveryone believes that. There are just those people, you know? And my parents? Definitely one of 'em.
Here's the thing, I've hintedmultiple times on social media, where my mother can see,that I have depressive disorder. I've told them how it's so odd that I'm not hungry enough for eating twice a day, then eating too much on another day. I've told them how I have insomnia and they laughed it off.
I was a little hurt by that, and I never really forget when I get hurt, so yeah. My struggle is kind of... it'ssomething. Someone suggested that I should search for free clinics offering psychiatric help (since I'm really worried about money problems and how my parents will probably use that excuse or something), and there are no free clinics in the PH that have counseling.
I've had support, from my friends, to my sisters (who I've already told about my condition). But it just gets too much. So much that it's affecting my way of life, it's affecting my motivations. Hell, it might affect mygrades, which my mother prioritizes.
I'm just, I'm aiming for a Psychology course for college so, that might help. But I have a lot of years ahead of me, and I need to get this fixed or at least dealt with. I can't just get into a bout during exam weeks! I just, can someone help?
I'm so sorry that you are even having to experience this alone! A family who is supportive during a traumatic experience is so very important to the outcome of the situation. It seems like you are incredibly aware of what you suffer from and I think that is magnificent! Self-awareness is the absolute best method of approach with any mental disorder. You and only you know what will make you happy in the end-- and your attempts to reach out have not been in vain. I agree that seeing someone professionally will help you get through those difficult times (such as exam weeks) but if that is not possible-- reaching out to any friend or family member that is understanding would do wonders. I've always found that by simply reaching out to those around me-- I've been surprised by them more often than not. You deserve the right to happiness and if your parents want to be in denial about your condition-- you need to find someone who won't be. Taking a psychology course would be most enlightening though! I can assure you:) You'll learn more about yourself and others--while also studying the exact disorder you suffer from. Again, I am so sorry you feel alone in this but I promise you are not. Millions of people suffer from the exact same thing and they have been making attempts to reach out just like you. I wish you the best of luck!
