No clue what to do.
this is a repost from a post that was taken down. I just don’t have a lot of hope anymore. I’m not in crisis but I don’t see much reason to NOT be in one. After a week in the hospital I had a few good days but now that I’m out and they’ve thrown me to a psychiatrist that I can’t afford I’ve already had to quit my treatment because I can’t pay for it. I can’t pay for medication, I have no free services near me. I don’t even feel alive anymore. At this point I just exist and wish I didn’t.
Tbh honest it really sucks when they delete things like this. I know they really frown on talking about su*cide but talking about it and talking about how you feel can be helpful. I mean realistically most of us know and understand that if the talk were serious there's realistically nothing anyone can do. Not on an internet forum. The only thing I can see that might have caused it would be that - wish I didn't. But that isn't coming right out and saying you're going to do anything. Just - wishing. And you even said you're not in crisis - so Idk
They censor things here for good reasons but sometimes they get alittle overzealous with their censoring because it makes people feel worse if things get deleted or it makes them feel like they can't talk about anything
Do you have legs? Can you run?
Run Run , Run , Run
That all sounds so frustrating. Keep telling them your financial situation and ask them what they would do in your shoes. @Server8462
last Time I did that they just shrugged, a sign they don’t know what to do, and told me to start going outside more.
Well going outside more will help a bit most likely. It certainly has helped me. But it isn't going to solve everything.
But if what you can do for now is go outside to try to help, at least you would be doing something. A lot of times it is really small movement that you can be grateful for. A good 15-30 minutes is better than nothing. @Server8462
I don’t see the point anymore, Vase. It always comes back to me standing at the edge of the cliff, figuratively speaking.
Isn't a few minutes away from the cliff better than none? I totally get how frustrating this all is. @Server8462
those few minutes don’t matter much when I’m going to end up right back where I was before.
Those few minutes do matter. They are the lifeline.@Server8462
I disagree.
I can understand that. I know how very frustrated you are. It feels like your brain has turned completely against you and the world has as well.
But for me the way out of the hole was only possible by holding onto those 5 minute intervals for dear life. Slowly over years of work I could get them to build into something more. But the effort was quite intense.@Server8462
Every single day I just get more and more frustrated with all of the garbage this world keeps throwing in my fsce. If I was meant to live then I wouldn’t have been like this for over 15 years and had so little success at remedying it that I might’ve as well not have tried. If the powers that be wanted me to get better then treatment wouldn’t be so damn expensive and hard to get. I’m starting to see the writing on the wall that maybe someone as miserable as me was never meant to be on this planet in the first place.
Gee that's so sad, Server. I wish I could offer you hugs.
@Server8462 I'm sorry that this happened to you. I hope you will feel better brighter days are coming! <3
@Server8462 I'm sorry that this happened to you. I hope you will feel better brighter days are coming! <3
Hi. What was reason they let you out? Was this some time coming and did they prepare you? Can’t chuck you out without giving you notice. Also getting you to seek help? Did they offer anyone? Sounds like you were doing well before this. It’s them what’s put you back down. I think you need answers and speak to who’s in charge? They got duty to care.
idk if ur religious or not, nor do i care if you are. however, I will be saying a prayer for you. try to find god, whoever that is to you. I truly wish the best for you, may god keep you in his heart🙏
