One thing I feel sad about right now is....

I dont like living in LA. Im only here because of work. My closest family is 3000 miles away, I only have one real friend out here. Ive been battling depression since I moved here. Im having an extremely difficult time coping with a breakup and Im blaming myself for all of it, even when I know its not my fault. I am very alone, surrounded only by work and depression.

Living takes so much work and it feels like it will never be over. I have no interests. I'm not very good at anything. I'm not very smart. Soon I have to think about college, and I hate everything.

I think my wife is trying to leave me.

A LOT OF THINGS. But mainly right now, the fact that people don't stay in my life for very long. I have only realised this recently. People get tired of how insane and annoying I am or they just hurt me so bad to the point that I have to throw them away. Everybody seems to love hurting me, lying to me, ruining the tiny glimpses of light that I sometimes see in the dark.

I am sad that in order to survive I have to have people around me, but people make surviving harder. Makes no sense, right?

Everything right now, I am unemployed and in a difficult situation

My relationship is falling appart. I can't figure out if my depression is the root cause of all, or if the relationship is just not meant to be. I feel exhausted all the time.

I feel crazy & untethered. Some days suicide feels inevitable & I don't feel like I can talk to anyone bc I feel like such a burden to loved ones. But then I'll be ok & I'm horrified of my thought process & how I act around my baby. I'm glad she's too young to remember any of this & I just want to be ok before she sees & understands how crazy her mom is.

That I'm not mending a friendship for fear of being hurt by someone I thought I could trust again.

Memories of dark, lonely days when people I thought had my back turned their backs on me.

physics I feel bad about it i hope I get acceptable marks. But it's my fault I do not study my lessons well