One thing I feel sad about right now is....

I feel sad that work is against me, joe is starting to hate me, I

Right now, strangely for no reason at all. That i could figure out, at least. Sometimes i just feel sad, like right now. Like an ocean wave that

I think I scared off the only person I've ever had feelings for, and they'll probably never speak to me again. it's been five months since we last spoke. I don't know what to say. I don't think I can fix this. I can't get them off my mind. it hurts.

Trying so hard to keep the past in perspective flashbacks just so tired

...that I'm so tired of having to fight for getting better. I try, but it's so overwhelming..

Loneliness

I am never satisfied

I don't know what's worse. Daydreaming about a future you know you'll never achieve or crying over them because you know it'll never happen.

Where I am

I got into a fight with a coworker yesterday. She started it but we made up and all is good. I have decided to try and avoid her at all costs starting now. I would have been okay with her and continue to talk with her if she didn't say she will teach me "proper etiquette". I'm offended because it's like an insult to my family like they never raised me properly.