One thing I feel sad about right now is....
I feel sad that I cannot pass my board exams. i have been putting it off for a year, but I'm so scared to fail it. I attempted once.. if i fail again. its going to be so shameful. i wouldn't know what to do with myself. Im so sad. i dont know what to do right now... go back to school, or study to pass my board exams... i have neither motivation for both. someone please give me words of encouragement
How I can't exactly define what's wrong with me anymore and that makes it near impossible to get help or have anyone understand
@Gixor yeah I understand that. Not easy when your mind is making you confused about what you want.
That its so hard to make friends now
I keep making good people hate me.
@Laura
Notknowing which way to go as if im loosing my self after loosing a mqn i loved and never getting back not know ing how to let go how to manage life again with out him I feel like a failure not worthy not good enough
How alone I am
@Dobado34 are you really?
Okay close your eyes and picture a scenic place,for me it usually is mountain top with a swing placed at the very end and through the mountains I can see vividly the pleasant scenary,green cover almost encapsulating the whole place,clouds floating just inches from me,birds chirping and flying here and there without a worry and me sitting there by myself with my dog, dog and a puppy,dog and a puppy and a rabbit and maybe quite a few deer.
That is my getaway. I don't know why I shared this just felt like it
@calmHand123 that sounds wonderful! :) I dream of a place like yours too but it is my farm and my piece of land I have with lots of animals and its a warm place to be with everyone I love and those who love me back. It seems like its only a dream though..
When my little sister (8) tried to help me rebuild her fort after a bunch of nasty kids trashed it they all decided to come back and guess who got these 5 kids calling me names, making sarcastic comments, telling me I'm not a man (transgender) and accusing me of wanting to beat up 3 year olds.
I dealt with it the best way I could. Confronted them over the fort, told them off, and left.
I guess even when I tried to not let it get to me, I'm now sat here trying not to cry my eyes out. Pathetic.
I feel bad. Feeling bad has become kind of normal for me these days,a constant thing in my head. I am trying to fight it,to stay calm and happy.
I think to battle with one's own mind is not easy. I do that everyday. Why? I don't know that all I know is I have to fight and win everyday. This is my constant.
Feeling guilty. Just in general. I always feel like I keep hurting people even though I try my best to help.
I'm sad that some people won't change their true cruel personality
