One thing I feel sad about right now is....

I'm useless and I feel like talking is pointless as well.

How I'm failing my friends and family. I know I'm not good enough and I just wish it could stop. Bit if I die, they'll still be disappointed

Ill never be able to be myself around the people that I love

That it

I just got home from the party to my friends house. Mu friedns are beautiful and i think im the ugliest that time. I saw and i felt that time that they laughing at me. I dont know but i think people now a days if ur not pretty or u have no money, u have no friends. They just laughing at you or they make u a comedian. :(

that im feel so weak and worthless

I have starved for 2 days, and I am infested with guilt. I have work at 11am 2morrow and if I don't sum up the balls to eat, I'll end up passing out.

My sister and I had plans yesterday to go to the psychic fair yesterday but then got into a fight and ended up not going. We made up later that night and made plans to go this morning instead. Well of course neither of our alarms went off, it's now 2pm and I just woke up and wanting to cry because all I wanted to do this weekend was go to the stupid ass psychic fair but my depression got in the way twice and now I can't go at all.

I'm not motivated to even move. I feel fat and ugly. I have a lot of school work to do......

I feel like I have no reason to legitimately be sad. I'm making good money at my job and just bought myself my first car. I was in a relationship that I was not satisfied in not too long ago and I got out of it and was feeling liberated. I made a new good friend. Things are generally going well for me but I still just can't help but feel so utterly depressed. I cried myself to sleep last night and considered harming myself which I have done neither in a very long time. I just overall feel very alone. At my job, for the past two years my manager used to constantly give me attention and affection, which is something I need for some reason, but recently has completely stopped and won't talk to me anymore. I was talking to and getting to know a boy that I was beginning to form real interest in, but now I can't talk to him again until Tuesday because he's sitting in jail. I had only been texting him for four or five days before now so I don't know why I feel so lonely and sad without him. He's a very sweet person. And I know Tuesday is only 2 days away, so I can't understand why this affecting me so badly. I guess I just feel forgotten about by people that normally give me daily attention. And that makes me feel unimportant, and like no one would care if I died. That's extreme, and I know it. But I don't know what to do about it. I have so much work due in school but am too depressed to do any of it.