One thing I feel sad about right now is....

I was recently looked over for a promotion I know I was qualified for.

I just found out my best friend (living across the world) is coming home but it could be the last time I see her because shes joining the army in Israel and I havent seen her in months and miss her so much

The way my mother refuses to help me despite me working hard everyday just to keep her with food and shelter makes me incredibly sad. She doesn't care if I come home in pain, tired, and hungry she refuses to lift a finger to help me or even help us save money. It makes me wish I would fall asleep and never wake up again just to stop feeling this torture everyday. To make matters worse the one person who is always there for me is no where to be found. I am sure he doesn't want me as his gf anymore.

I feel sad about work and relationships. I feel like I am at a dead end because I'm in the middle of nowhere. It's hard to escape from here without more training or education that I can't get because of finances. So I am really just hopelessly soul crushed.

My mom passed away a couple months ago from a 3 year battle with cancer. During that time, my dad and I (I'm an only child) were her primary care givers. She had her own business, so during the last 3 years, I took over her business and continued to run that in addition to my full time job. Now that she has passed, I'm continuing to run the business for now. It is currently for sale and although that will be a relief to not have so much on my plate, the thought of selling that business and my childhood home are daunting, as that was always such a big part of my life. In my "free" time, I am helping to get the house, property and business in order to sell. My role with my dad has changed as I am more of a caregiver to him as he is adjusting to the new "normal".

In addition to losing my mom, I have also just ended a 13 year relationship with my partner. I finally had enough of the emotional abuse, the manipulation, the drug and alcohol use and how realization of how I became so isolated from my friends and much of my family. After my mom's passing, it became clear to me that he would always choose alcohol and drugs over me, no matter what I was going through. I spent this past weekend moving the rest of my items out of our house and into my own apartment. This is the first time I have lived by myself in 13 years. It is a relief to be out of that house and to not to always feel like I'm an idiot, but it is going to take a while to heal myself from everything.

Because i dont know whats happening in my relationship.

my first boyfriend broke up with me a few weeks ago and now my life feels like its spiraling apart a bit. i feel worthless all the time... there's this feeling of dread and sadness that's constantly clawing at me now. i have times where it feels like it's lifted a bit, but i'm always aware of it. it's still always there. might be because i changed medications recently as well.

anyway, my self esteem is really awful and at times i blame myself completely for what happened just so i can feel like i have some control over the situation. but other times i just miss him... i really miss having someone love me and accept me. now that it's gone i just feel worthless. i feel like i have nobody i can turn to that will give me the same genuine love and care and attention that he did. my dad and mom make me feel even worse about myself, and my friends are a little distant. i feel alone and the only one who can fix it doesn't want the job.

losing everything.. my job.. my family.. my life..

That I hurt her and I can never take it back now

How I look like a kid even though I'm an adult. People just don't take you seriously and look down on you in a way