One thing I feel sad about right now is....

I feel sad all the time. And thats the sad part. Ive been hinting to my parents that I might have depression, and its an ugly feeling thats affecting my happiness, my social life, even my so far perfect grades. I dont know how to tell them. Ive been very irritable at them, I dont want to be, but I just am, and I dont know how to explain.

A few days ago I pinned a poem about depression that I related to. It was titled I hate myself and it talked about suicide and hating your body and all. She saw that poem, and she bursted in my room screaming at me to explain what this is, that normal people dont read stuff like that, that Im selfish and Im making it up, that Im hurting everyone around me like this, andbthat this is the reason I snap at them often...and I should FIX IT and shut the heck up. I just wish theyd understand. They were trained to think depression isnt a real thing, and always twist it around to make it about them. Thats what hurts me the most of all other problems in life.

There. I let it all out.

The idea that my biological mother may not love me. After finding out my mother had physically abused me and my sister when we were babies, I confronted her about it and she denied everything but the court documents had her brother's name on them as an eye witness. making sure that it was not false information, i contacted my uncle about it and he said he can't remember and asked for a picture of the docs. after sending him pics, he went a while without messaging me so when i decided to break the silence and get answers, he said he lost the pics and asked for new pics of the docs. i knew at that point he was playing mind games with me so i blocked my mother right then and there. nine months pass, and i decide i should try and give my mother another chance since i used to be violent when i was a teenager. she was so passive aggressive and made everything tense and awkward. then, when she said she needed to get some sleep, i told her i love her and hope we can talk again. all she replied with was "ok ttyl" when, in the past, she used to always tell me she loves me too. am i just over reacting to this and misinterpreting her words? or does my mother just not love me at all anymore, and is more in love with herself? at this point, i don't care if she doesn't love me since she was never actively involved in my life growing up, but i don't want to persue a relationship with my mother if all she's going to be is toxic

My friendship fell apart. I met two guys last year and they quickly became the closest friends Id ever had, I dont trust people easily but I really started to trust them enough to really love them.. I even started crushing on one of them.. and the one I was crushing on was crushing on the other guy.. It hurt so bad to see him crushing on someone else but I just gwanted him to be happy because I loved him so much and I made sure that I treated the other the same no matter what my feelings were. But even with all of the effort I put into the friendship, they started fighting and I was the middle man. I sided with the one that wasnt acting out of anger and lost the other as a friend but I dont even talk to the one I sides with that much anymore. I really loved them and trusted them and theyre both gone.

Im sad because i feel like i am being ignored by a lot of people and i get bullied sometimes by kids in my grade and at my school and even though i am 11 years old and im a kid it doesnt mean that i cant stand up for myself and say things that i feel about and things that make me feel sad or happy. We all have a right to say what we think and our own opinions. I hope you guys read this and understand that i am going through a hard time right now.

... finding hard to stop thinking about somebody whos probably not worth it.

My best friend is dead I felt like she was all I had left. I loved her sooo much

hopeless, useless, worthless. I have no one. The people closest to me dont care, they dont listen or empathize or sympathize. Its like I dont exist and my issues arent important. Im alone, misunderstood and abandoned. I dont feel ignored and abandoned. I am ignored and abandoned. I dont know wtf Im doing here.

Worries of health anxiety

I feel sad that I can't do what I want to do because my job affects my life so much right now. Kind of a silly thing to be sad about, but it's valid enough for me.

I am sad, because my head keeps going in circles. I was taking care of myself and I stopped. I'm in conflict. "It doesn't matter." "I want to feel good." "What's the point?" I don't feel like I want to do anything yet, I want to do things that make me happy? What is wrong with me?

I am sad, because I am scared. Scared the sexual assault will be revealed to the family and everything will go to hell. I feel guilty though I shouldnt. I feel the panic attack just imagining it. Every one will fight. Everyone will seperate. Through out my childhood it was hell...and I am scared to go down this path.

I am sad, because I am anxious. Anxious because of my fiance. Scared that it won't work out between us. I am scared to lose him. I would break if I did.

Scared that the life I lived will repeat onto my children. I am even scared to have children. What if I shouldnt? What if I am a bad mother? What if the way to stop the cycle is just to die?

I am sad, because these thoughts never really go away.