One thing I feel sad about right now is....
My boyfriend wants to be done
@Brokenntrying85 why is that?
Having no friend around me like over 37 years. 
One thing I feel sad about is how uncontrollable my life feels.
the fact that I
That I just ate, no matter how little it was
The effect my struggle with an ed and self harm has had on my teenage years
Losing my uncle & dad, and I couldn't even say good bye.
@blueSpruce3085 Same thing happened to me with my best friend a month ago. I like to look at it as though theyre not gone, theyre just waiting for us on the other side :). Hence why they didnt say goodbye
Not being able to be more open about some of my problems with my therapist
Just yesterday I asked for space from an ex Ive been talking to since we broke up. I was starting to fall for him again and I wanted to know if I truly loved him or its just because Im attached to the old memories we share together. He was devastated to know that we wouldnt be talking for 2+ months. I miss him but I believe that I made the right decision
I wish I had a purpose. I wish I had a goal. Something to strive for. At this point in my life I feel like a ship in the middle of the ocean with no destination and just being blown in whatever direction the wind blows. Even as I contemplate and write this I'm realizing that I've been that ship my whole life and not just at this moment of it. I'm wondering if there is any reason to keep living at all. But I haven't been really living at all, just existing. And I see nothing on the horizon that would indicate that it'll ever be any different.
@scaryperry1
I think there are no words to make you feel better now. But I know this feeling. I am very sorry that it's not Just a short Phase but a Long Term one instead.
But there are so many Ships in the middle of the ocean. Maybe Just follow one a Bit and ASK them why they choose the direction, follow a Bit and maybe you will Figure Out your own someday.
Stay strong. I Wish you all the best.
@scaryperry1 I feel the exact same, and if it's any consolation you're not alone in this. Be brave and hold on 
