One thing I feel sad about right now is....
I feel like I'm slowly dying and at the point of no return where I can't feel anything.
@Gixor I feel for you. It's hard just going through the motions, and feeling like everything sometimes takes your full mental effort. Things that should be natural I have to overthink about in the back of my head. Sometimes I just move through my house and then notice how dead I feel inside. It hits all the time. I really hope you can find some light, and keep talking about it.
I've been neglecting myself for quite some time and only realised tonight..
I'm making a fool of myself. I've been on this sort of delusional rollercoaster for a few of weeks now that i've allowed myself to build up with enough twists and turns that I'm not even sure if I remember the details as they happend or as I thought of them and it's all so confusing. Then with the familiar sadness I thought would be away longer comes back to haunt me once again to say hello and remind me that there is no way to be completely free from that familiar evidently self-inflicted misery that I keep running over in circles again and again. Everything seems like it's all for nothing now. Whats the point of anything anymore? this is all so stupid.
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It's fwttige harder and harder to feel or care about anything
I feel sad because I keep thinking that Iam as screwed up as my ex-boyfriend and friend thought I was when they decided to not want anything to do with me because of my illness.
boring personality
How empty and destructive I feel in some moments
I feel really ridiculous that I still cant seem to get over my ex-boyfriend even though he left because of my mental illness.
@Dobado34 screw him! I hate men like that. he does not deserve you. it wasn't that you weren't enough. it was that you were too much he couldn't handle you. there will be a man with bigger hands to love, hold, and care for you
How I'm letting depression get the better of me. I'm applying to medical schools right now, and I am ruining my chances because I'm depressed. And the worst part is that I only have myself to blame.
@purpleMap5053 its not your fault. you do not choose depression, it chooses you. it's something we have no control over. although there are ways to help and cope with it. I just want you to know that YOU are not alone. I am currently battling depression myself. we have to stay strong for ourselves and those who depend on us.
@sugarpinks I actually have borderline personality disorder and depression and it sucks. I'm to blame for ruining my future because of the present. I'll always blame myself.
@purpleMap5053 its never to late for anything. you haven't ruined anything. you are still here and thats what matters