One thing I feel sad about right now is....
I feel sad about a lot of things ,that I have no one to confide in about how I feel.My moms in total denial that she uses her issues to try and get out of getting a job and moving forward in her life and she blames me for everything and we have to go to food banks and are barely getting by ,its exhausting listening to her negativity. I wish I could leave because theres nothing left for me anymore ,but I have no where to go and Id be out a job.The people I call my friends are so involved in there own lives no one cares about me.i am sooo lost Ive lost myself I really have. Theres always that saying that you should surround yourself with positive people I guess thats why no one wants to listen to me and why I was left behind by those who claimed to love me..
@Dobado34 you can always start again. As long as you are living life you can have a fresh start. It's hard dealing with the depression of a parent. They say that depression can be passed down maternally, and that poverty increases depression and anxiety issues. It is important to take care of yourself, and I know it's hard wanting to help someone who doesn't want to help themselves. It seems like nobody wants to take it seriously so you end up being the only one helping. You are important also, and I so hope you can make it through this.
@Dobado34 i hope your old enough to leave i left my family when i was 19 moved to hawaii from ny best time of my life till i had to come back because my mom was dieing and i dont think you should disown her fully cause she did make u sorry if im blunt im not the best person with words
That I can't finish a painting, I love art with all of me, but it feels like i can't do anything anymore
@Gixor I totally emphasize and resonate with that. In those moments we can't do the things that we truly love it's like a cloud, but when that cloud evaporates there a beaming multitude of creative ideas - an infinite number of creative possibilities. It's sometimed hard to see beyond cloud of feelings I get it too. I know it's hard but stay strong and trust that you will feel it again. Paint through the sadness let it be an expression of it helps until it feels good or simply eat and go back to art when you feel to .
How ive lost myself and its gonna be a long road back
@Dobado34 hey, even though it may be a long and hard road, just think of how worth it it'll be. Imagine how thankful you'll be when all your hard work pays off, you'll feel so good about yourself, and though it's hard now it'll all be worth it in the long run
I to am lost and feel like i am walking a long dark road, so maybe watchout for me and we can walk it together, I am not afraid of the dark,but i am really tired, some light at the end of the tunnel would be great right now just so i know im not lost but on the right path@Dobado34
That I am so easily discarded and expendable.
That I've hurt both fa itch and friends though my actions. I feel guilty
I can't think straight
My only friend is hurting. He's trying to stay afloat, but I'm worried. He is aware he's isolating himself from others, because he doesn't want to inflict his gloom or anger on others.
I'm not responsible for "fixing" his mood. I'm responsible for MY life, MY finances, MY commitments first. Selfcare, physical therapy, work, psychotherapy, mindfulness
That it feels like I'm dying on the inside and I keep it to myself and continue on even though I know my mom and everyone else that cares would never want that for me, but I don't care about myself enough to do anything about it.
My childhood friends and I are drifting apart and none of them seem to really care about it. I'm scared I'm gonna lose those friendships and won't be able to make new ones.
no matter how hard I try to reach out to the males in my life i am never good enough, I will never be in the boys club, My dad told me to just give up today why bother, thanks dad I love you to
