Right to feel this way

People still do not know how important is the validation of emotions. Actually I neither did, until recently.

I have depressions since I was a child, and when I was 13, I was thinking about suicide very often. I was bullied at school, was experiencing domestic abuse at home, I was sexually abused, I had no friends, no one to talk about what I was going through, what's happening at home, at school. And when I found some place on the internet, a forum about depression or so, I said how I felt and everyone was just like... You are spoiled, do not complain, you are young and know nothing about life and suffering... Family members, teachers at school, neighbours and many other adult people must have known that I was not okay, but no one ever tried to help me, recommend me to visit a health care professional, or so. For the first time I have visited a psychologist when I was 18, we were only talking about what time I eat or go to sleep, nothing about the trauma I had. Then she told me I need no help.

When I was 20, I went to psychiatrist and again - he told me he cannot help me.

Now I am 25. I have a psychiatrist who admits I am severely ill, for the first time, but still just writes a prescribtion and bye. Once she even told me I am just a spoiled kid who needs to be punished.

I have no friends in real life, but when I talk about my problems and feelings in the internet, everyone is just like... Cheer up, dont think about your struggles, you are too sensitive, why don't you just pull together, you need to try, you are lazy, collect your thoughts, you're just self-pitying...

DAMN NO. My feelings are important and people who have been overlooking my issues all my life have severely hurted me. I need to be heard and supported. I deserve compassion, I deserve love and attention! And that I talk about my feelings so much? Yes, I do. Because it hurts the more, the more you victimize me for them.