So alone

Sometimes when I come on this site I begin to feel worse. I feel so alone. I can't find a listener that i feel comfortable with. The very few I did are either not really available because of being on the other side of the world or they are not online often at all. Others I found a bit rude.

I live in a world with billions of people, yet I'm alone. Im on a site with thousands/millions of people, yet I'm alone.

Feeling alone is only intensifying my panic and recent extremely dellusional thoughts and sights. No one in my little support net, consisisting of energy healer, acupuncturist, therapist, Dr, are not available all werkend mostly because of being away on vacation. I'm going to end up in full blown panic and dellusional. Very dellusional!!

i feel like I'm falling.