Struggling and Tired
Hey everyone. I don’t post ever but I figured I’d give it a shot. I just got hit with a strong depression wave after being pretty good for the last 2ish years. I’ve felt it coming but it just hit me like a brick in the last week. My anxiety has been bad and I’m fighting panic and anxiety attacks nearly every day, even at work. I’m feeling angry and I don’t know why. I hate when I feel like this. I’m just tired. I feel emotionally and mentally exhausted. Im having a real hard time even masking it from people, it’s just too much work. I know I should probably get back on my medication but I don’t even have health insurance. I feel like I’m at a loss. Like there’s no point. I know I’m not going to do anything bad to myself but the temptation is strong. Im just over it all, I’m tired.
im sorry if this is all over the place I just needed to get it out somewhere. Thanks for listening lol
My heart goes to you! I can't even begin to understand what you're going through right now, and I want to thank you for finding the strength to share.
Hey! I feel the same; a few weeks ago I had such a bad panic attack at work that I had cramps in my arms and just couldn't prevent tears running down my face even though I forced myself to widely open my eyes. Sounds weird and felt horribly embarrassing as my colleague called the doctor. I was sent home and got a bronchitis a few days later. I have never felt more lonely, I don't have anyone in my life- no parents/ family, I am single with no kids and hardly any friends who I could have asked for support. I was in therapy a while ago and thought I'd manage on my own, but obviously I was wrong. I lost faith in psychotherapists as I didn't feel any relief and improvement during my last two therapies.
I feel the only thing that would help me is a true friend who I can share my thoughts with. Not necessarily deep ones, but just someone to have a casual chat about each other's days, good, bad, funny and random stuff- just anything. I have arrived at the conclusion that something is profoundly wrong with me.
@beautifulbetta1115
My dear friend. I am so proud of you having the courage to post this thread. Putting ones feelings in writing is a step in the right direction according to me, but also it can be a challenge on its own. I would like to be there for you. If you want to you may reach out to me in a one on one . I listen compassionately but cannot give advise for you know yourself and your life best. But when you just feel to talk I am willing to listen and hopefully be able to make you feel a little better.
Please take care and keep reaching out,
Steyn
@beautifulbetta1115I am very sorry for what you feel and no doubt it is difficult.. but first I want to say that you are very brave because you are here and because you were able to express what you feel.. We are proud of you... Have you thought about trying relaxation and breathing exercises? Or practice mindful meditation? I can understand that you may not be able to do this because you are in a difficult situation.. A painful journey, but you are strong enough to take it. I hope you feel better soon