Struggling to adjust
I'm feeling incredibly keyed up and antsy. My father just died recently and my mother and I, who have always been best friends, are now struggling with a new dynamic that is making me feel si unsettles and sad. I don't want to lose what we have always had together. I'm tempted to eat my feelings away. To just eat and eat until I can't feel pain. But I won't do that. My insides are crawling, screaming to run away. I just want things back the way they were. I want things back.
Hello @gentleEast8898 - Thank you for reaching out and sharing this with us today. Reaching out takes a lot of courage.
I am so sorry for the loss of your father. I hope your relationship with your mother improves, it sounds like it's been negatively affecting your mental health a lot. I can understand wanting to eat away your feelings. Can you think of any distractions or coping skills you could use when you're feeling down? 
@fairyava Thank you so much for your kind words and supportive, patient message. It meant so much to me. Yes, you're right; it's crucial to have coping tools. For me, admitting my feelings goes a long way to managing them. Warmest wishes for you.
