Struggling today
Good morning everyone
today started off okay, went for a bike ride then my bike broke. I know not a big deal then, I get home and everything fine. Wife then has a pop at me because I put youngests clothes in eldest son room easy musk take they roughly same size clothes.
Since then felt rubbish then started stressing about going back to work next week (I work in a school). Took wife then to eye appointment and came home with kids. Youngest had a meltdown in the car and threw himself on floor (he has Autism). Screaming off top of lungs people waking past tutting and staring. We get in and he is fine. Eldest then decided it was a good time to give me attitude which made me feel worse.
im also waiting for an autism assessment so stressing about that too. Long story short I stress easily and stress is a trigger for my depression which I have been okay was until recently.
@intuitiveBunny4160
Hang in there things will get better! I can't imagine how difficult it is to have a child with autism. My advice is to gently let your wife know that what happened was a mistake and to ask her to go a little more easy on your next time as you are not perfect. Maybe also sit your other child down and let him/her know that you understand they want attention, but his/her acting in a negative way makes you feel bad and you don't want to feel that way toward him/her.
I know things can snowball with depression as they do for me. Certainly it is frustrating, but give yourself a break and realize you can only deal with so much.
