The hell is wrong with me
It's the holidays, yet I'm down in the dumps. I'm with my family, yet I feel alone still. My grandfather's health is declining and it's probably his last Christmas. My fiance is in a whole different country and having thoughts of splitting. Why can't I enjoy the holidays with my family? Why do I need to fake a smile? Is there something wrong with me?
@Xym0x
i'm so sorry to hear that you were feeling down in the dumps during the holidays :( it's completely normal to feel alone and upset - i would too if i was in your shoes, regardless of who we're with. it sounds like everything you are going through is really challenging to deal with and i can assure you there is not anything wrong with you. feeling like we need to fake a smile is a really tough thing to do, but it's completely understandable why we may do it. even if we feel negatively on the inside, wanting to fake a smile can show how strongly we want to seem for others around us, but genuinely enjoying such a happy time can be extremely hard when we have other things going on behind the scenes or even in our own minds! expressing our feelings can be really hard, but i hope this forum will be helpful for you in sharing your feelings and getting support <3 i hope the rest of your holidays went well - we're here for you no matter what and will support you through whatever you'd like to share with us! wishing you nothing but the best ❤️
i have no family no fiance no friends, i HATE THE HOLIDAYS because i hate the evil people being happy when they dont deserve shit, just because they werent born with SA I HATE THEM SO MUCH fucking piece of shit holidays just invented for social people with lots of friends, i hate it all