They get resentful and mean when they cannot fix me

I'm really sorry to hear that you've been having such bad experiences. I know that reaching out takes a lot of courage,and it's daunting, to say the least,when you find the strength to reach out and find that sometimes, people can't support you the way you need to be supported. However, don't lose faith. I'm positive that, with some perseverance and a lot of inner strength, you can find a listener that is right for you. If you'd like to chat with me, I'd really love the opportunity to speak with you. And I promise to be patient and try my best to support you the way you need. So please, if you'd like, send me a message anytime.

Today was so hard. I tried to reach out. But I know the person had no clue what I waas talking about. So I just lied to get out of continuing. If I did not try so hard I would not mind. I take medication. I do exercises and take good suppliments for the brain.

I tried therapy again. I lost therapist when I went on medicare. But I found someone new, Someone who did EFT,meridian tapping. But her idea of that was to read it to me out of a book from a psychiatric hospital. Filling in the blanks as she read. Over and over. That was it. Over and over. Once she made a mistake and used the word "blank". There was nothing creative of spontaneous about being there. It felt odd and uncomfortable. Buti diligently did it with her. And I also diligently did all assignments.II was 100% there and cooperative, willing and empowered within it.

But she, after 12 weeks told me she had hoped we would have made more progress. The following week I spoke to her about it. She said she would NEVER say something like that. She does not judge. And thats a judgement. So I reminded her of the context. I had asked her how I was doing in therapy. I thought I was doing well, to be honest with you. But she said otherwise.

When she finally did remember that she had in fact said this, she quick changed the subject instead of trying to mitigate the damage her words would likely have caused. The two times I brought up the subject of my brother having died this year, she changed the subject. I was devistated. Because I too often find therapists who cause harm.

I had panic attacks. So I called on Wednesday to cancel for the following Monday. I explained I was having panic attacks ( because of her words to me of failure). I asked her to call me. She didnt. On Sunday I ended up calling and permenantly teminated.

It is so hard to try and get pushed down so often. I know there is a lot of damage with me. I know i am very very damaged.

Hi Liligrace. I can relate. It takes a lot though to keep trying and I'm really impressed that you do. You want to make progress just at the pace that's right for you and they find it frustrating. I hope that you will find someone one day that won't get frustrated.

Thats why relying on other people is stupid atleast thats how i see it the only person who can change anything is yourself people pretend to care until they get annoyed and just walk out on you good ridance if you ask me

Hey!
I'm terribly sorry that you've been through such a terrible experience here. You're really brave to have reached out to people here and I'm sorry that some of us couldn't help you. However, just stay strong, and I'm sure you'll find an amazing listener who'd help you in a lot of ways. :)

If ever you need to talk to someone, I'm here. :)
*hugs*