Time flys when you

It has been 2 years or so since I last signed in on here, let alone contributed. To recap, last time I was here I was ranting about my insignificant problems compared to many more serious problems. Since June this year, I moved back to my hometown from working at M&S Bank, due to bad experiences at work there.

My team manager quietly humiliating me in front of my team and every one else in the department. They expect high targets with amazing accuracy constantly with no problems, so many cases daily. It doesnt help if you have anxiety and or depression, but there was no support for me particularly since I was working on behalf of a shitty agency. I made some friends there, but I havent kept in contact, apart from the odd message I would send to one person, but as usual, it is never reciprocated.

Trying to find a job again with about 11 months real work experience (and a degree) is so demoralising and horrible. Ive had job interviews, but so many bad ones where I gave my all, but to no avail. I dont want to move back to Chester, simply to get a job. I was so utterly lonely there especially when I had problems at work, and no family or real friends to turn to.

What do you all do when youre depressed? As I am depressed every day, I listen to music, job hunt and think about suicide. My favourites are PJ Harvey, Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds, Marianne Faithfull, The Stooges, Patti Smith and Kate Bush. Hardly cheerful I know!