Trying
So last year I was suffering quite allot. I was feeling so sad all the time and irritable and could not get out of this state of feeling empty. I resulted to self harm. It wasn’t my first time self harming but it was the first time in years since I had. I just really hated that year and hated my self and hated that I was such a burden to everyone. I’m not a person that will ever ask for help. I’m always the person that bottles you their emotions no matter what happens “I’m fine”.
Fast forward to now I just feel empty. I zone out quite allot which leave people which leave people worried. I’m in my head most of the time and sometimes I don’t even feel like I’m here physically. I’m trying my best not to get into that depressive state again. I’m practicing my piano, watching allot of Netflix, reading some books but nothing is helping.
Im
writing this because I’ve never really expressed how I felt to anyone so maybe this might help me.
@wittyVillage6453
Hello,
Since you aren't the type to reach out and ask for help,
I appreciate you writing this and being vulnerable.
I think you are doing great in maintaining your hobbies and interest, even if the may not feel like they are helping.
Since you mentioned you are in your head a lot, I recommend writing your thoughts out in a journal or even feel free to use the forums as diary entries, I have seen lots do it!
Wishing you all the best💛💫
@wittyVillage6453 I can really relate to you, I am also someone who doesn't really like to ask for help, since that, I get really sad and depressed sometimes and really really lonely because there is no one I can express my feelings to, but I found some joy when I can write my thoughts down and maybe connect with other people, whether its negative thoughts or thoughts of encouragement, In would always share it. Maybe you can share it a bit too with your best friend, or simply write it down and try to sort things out, be confident in yourself!!