Useless daughter
I'm 27 years old and still not yet finishing my studies. It's my 9th years in degree. I always felt that im a loser and a useless daughter. And never make my parents happy. Because at this age i should be the one who gave money. Not otherwise. Im unable to give them anything. All the time i regret being alive. Because im only a burden to them. They never said anything. Always giving me support. But i always know that i am useless. Felt like to just ended my life. Today, i brought my mum a handbag from online. Later i found out it's a fraud. Eventhough it is just $160 but thats all my hardwork. Back from class, i do online business. Then i decided to make my dad,mum, and siblings happy. I had already planned to buy all them something that can make them happy. To say that im thankful and so indebt to them. But now i feel useless. My money is gone, i got nothing for my mum. Why people need to be that cruel. That is not for me. Thats to make my mum happy. And i wanted to see her happy face. It soothe my soul. Im a failure! One handbag that is full of happiness. But i failed. Should i still be alive? Blank. Im sorry mum. I cant even do simple thing for you 
@Niazora Hi Niazora, thank you for the post. I can definitely relate to your thoughts especially on feeling useless. However, you went out of your way to buy your mom a nice gift; that shows you are caring and appreciative. Many people could careless about being part of a family and going out of their way to show their appreciation and love. I'm so sorry the gift did not work for you. I am sure your mom will appreciate the effort and thought. There are many ways to be useful besides providing money and gifts. Even the most simplest gestures, like helping out with chores or just chatting with your folks, can make a difference. How are you coping these days? If you ever need to chat with someone, feel free to reach out to the listeners at any time. You do not have to struggle alone. Best wishes! :)
