What world Am I in Again?😵

Depression. My mother says I have dealt with it all life. I don't think I noticed until I hit teenager years. Well lately, I have been feeling all over the place. I've been experiencing women problems (birth control issue, hormone imbalance), weight gain ( emotional stress), ending of a relationship with someone who I almost ended up getting pregnant by ( still having feelings about the pregancy scare & hating that guy) & this was all under 2 months😅 Not to mention the major winter storm that hit Texas not too long ago which started off flaring up my Asthma which further led to me getting sick which led to the other life shenanigans that I mentioned. I take antidepressants but I think they are a hit and miss for me. Today was a beautiful sunny day. I am most happiest when it's sunny but I got triggered by something and I guess I shut down. I didn't have much energy or spirit. I just felt really low and sad. Usually when I'm in that rabbit hole, I'm in it for a very long time and I don't like to be that way. Takes my strength and energy away. These months have felt like taking hit after hit. There always seems to be something wrong. I can't catch a break. I hope next month is better. I hope I feel somewhat better tomorrow. I hope the negative thoughts in my mind lessen. I hope my overall health gets better. I hope whoever reads this knows that they are not alone and that I appreciate you reading my post, take care🌻❤